I really thought all I would want to do in Finland would be to tell you all back home about how wonderful my last day was, how much I loved India and how sad I was to leave.
And I do. But honestly I just can’t. I never thought it was possible to have so much emotion inside of me and now words to explain it. As most people know, it isn’t really like me to not have something say! I’ve cried a lot the last 24 hours. I’ve cried tears of joy for the amazing experience that I have had. I’ve cried tears of told sadness when I had to say goodbye to my kids. I’ve cried tears of pride. Pride in my kids for how far they have come and pride in myself for how far I’ve come. I’ve cried tears of guilt for leaving my kids. I’ve cried tears of relief to be coming home. And I know I will cry again the second I get off the plane and see my mom for the first time in two months.
I tried really hard to write this great post to sum up my trip but it just isn’t coming. I worked out for the first time in a long time as soon as I checked into my hotel. After I took almost an hour long shower and finally felt clean for the first time since June. I thought this would be a great feeling but instead I just felt guilty. The henna on my feet made me feel like a proper Indian but now that the bottom of my feet are white again and no longer caked with dust I feel like I washed a little more of India away.
I also was really excited to show everyone pictures. But I haven’t looked through the pictures from my last day and just can’t bare to look now and shed more tears.
So now that I’ve spent a solid amount of time making up excuses for a really lame post, I’m going to curl up in bed and watch some Olympics for the first time. Promise a final update and lots and lots of pictures once I’m back in the great state of Ohio in just a little over a day!
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